The root cause is not in the bottom of a tub of ice cream.

Trust me.  I've checked.  The root cause is not in the bottom of a tub of ice cream.   Not in the Cookies n Cream or the Cake Boss Red Velvet or the Half Baked.  None of them.  There is still a lot I don't know about eating disorders and as I explore, I hunt desperately for the reason for mine. I was loved and affirmed as a child, I have a great community that loves and encourages me daily, but I have no root cause.  Why does suddenly the slightest stress send me spiraling down into bowl number 3 of cereal?  I suppose the end of the journey has this answer but until then, time to dig, grain by grain, clump by clump through the dirt to unearth the roots below.